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Sunday, October 8th, 2006
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| Time: | 2:44 am. |
| Mood: |  depressed. | | Music: | Green Day. |
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You know the feeling of being abandoned or betrayed by someone who says they are your friend? Or liking a guy that you ask out and then they get a girlfriend just to get out of saying something? For those of you who do, it is not a good feeling. It hurts, a lot. Not only on the outside but the inside too. A lot of the time it not only hurts you, it hurts the people around you too. Because you are depressed and hurt and you feel like the world hates you. I lost one of my best friends last year. She (I'm not naming names) even said that I was her friend. Then when she was done with me she tossed me to the side like a used piece of paper. Now she won't even speak to me. She doesn't reply to any e-mails and I have not heard from her, not matter how hard I try to talk to her. Another thing that is hard to deal with is loving/hating a guy. Half of you wants to strangle them, but then again the other half desperately wants to make out with them so bad it hurts. I am constantly fighting a silent battle in my mind whether I should kill the guy I love or tell him that I love him. I asked him (again I'm not naming names) to come to my homecoming with me ,as friends, and he got a girlfriend just to get out of it. It hurts so bad when he told me that he had a girlfriend, thats when the hate set in. Now I love him, but at the same time hate his guts. Then on top of that I see him every week because we go to church together. If anyone could offer advice it would be greatly appreciated.
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Sunday, August 20th, 2006
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| Time: | 10:56 am. |
| Mood: |  cheerful. |
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Hey people! I'm back! Sorry I haven't updated in a while. Been too busy.
You know what really annoys me? My parents! Y'all can relate right? Especially if you have a younger sibling. They always get what they want, get to do what they want, and they don't get in trouble. Its not fair. I hate it.
Guess what? My parents bought me a horse!
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| Time: | 6:04 pm. |
| Mood: | Depressed and Sad. | | Music: | All American Regects. |
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Hey everyone! sorry I haven't updated in a while! Been kinda depressed lately and just haven't felt like doing anything. I have given my LJ a dark look. It fits the mood i am in right now (i guess)
The horse shows never stop coming! They hit me like a big smack in the face. Week after week after week. I haul horses here, i haul horses there. It is really annoying!
People give me something to cheer me up! Please help me be happy again!
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Saturday, April 22nd, 2006
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You know what really pisses me off? People who make fun of other people so that they can feel better about themselves. Especially if the person is you. It really makes me mad. The other day at play pratice there were two girls (I don't mention names) who think that they are the best. They told me to get lost because I was just in everyone's way and that I come to play pratice but don't pratice and that I shouldn't have even join Drama if I wasn't going to be of any help to anybody. And the funny thing is that they are the ones that don't do anything. It really pissed me off. And now everytime I show up for play pratice they look at me like I am a dangerous insect that needs to be squashed quickly. I am getting to where I really hate them. Not just dislike them HATE them!!! The problem is that they are popular and they think that they are better than everyone else. That is one of the reason's that I don't like them. Nobody is any better than any one else. God created us all equally. Like people who claim that they have the gift of gab. Nobody can talk to animals except in the movies. I think that I am done griping for now.
See Ya!
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Thursday, April 20th, 2006
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Saturday brought sorrow for me. My boyfriend dumped me for another girl. I can't stand her. She is a witch. Literally. Jonas was everything to me and now he is gone forever. We are still friends, but it is not the same. It is just now awkward to be around him now. I don't know what to think. And all of my friends are saying that i am more EMO than ever. I am really depressed. Somebody cheer me up. Please. I need something. Please help me. I need something to cheer me up.
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Tuesday, March 28th, 2006
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| Time: | 11:14 am. |
| Mood: | sore. |
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ALLS WELL THAT ENDS WELL. I had a riding lesson yesterday and the horse I was riding was being an asshole. He refused two jumps and i fell off. The first time I fell I didn't hurt myself. But the second time he refused I fell again. The horse collided with the jump and i fell on top of the mess of poles and blocks. I landed on a jumping pole and now I have this big bruise on my leg and my whole right side is black and blue. It is really hard to move my right side. Anyways...the play is coming along really well. More of the cast is show up for pratice and Mrs. Writt isn't in such a pissy mood anymore. Mrs. Writt's daughter is painting the backdrop for the play and it looks really pretty. Two years ago, when I was in 7th grade, I was in the play. It was dark and I fell off of the platform I was standing and and landed on top of my violin and broke it all to pieces. Well now Mrs. Writt has those damn platforms out again and she has me standing on them in the scenes I am in. So if I fall.....I won't go into that.
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| Time: | 5:45 pm. |
| Mood: |  bitchy. |
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I am so tired of my parents always doing stuff for my brother. He always gets what he wants. He sees a toy at walmart says mommy can i have this and my mom says yes. i see a cd i want and i ask my mom if she will buy it for me and she bites my head off and she says she doesn't have any money, yet she is buying my brother a 15 dollar game/toy. it really pisses me off. then on top of that my dad does it too and he makes me do everything around the house and i don't get paid for it. and he says if i don't do my chores that i am not going to go to college. he can be an a-hole. but anyway i have had a really crappy day
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Tuesday, March 14th, 2006
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| Time: | 11:39 am. |
| Mood: | bored. |
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I went to a horse show this weekend. And of
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Saturday, March 4th, 2006
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| Time: | 7:04 pm. |
| Mood: |  blank. |
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well today wasn't a total loss. i had a riding lesson this morning and i have to get ready for a show next weekend (finally) i can't wait for show season to fully get underway. umm...on a different subject i am having major guy problems. there is this guy at school i like and there is this other guy that likes me (like a lot. like obsession!) but i don't like him because i think that he is a pervert. but anyway...he has been making really rude comments like monday he said to me "hey why don't you go 'play' with ... since you are such good(italics) friends!!" he just keeps saying things like that and it really pisses me off. he is such a perv. it is really gross. i'm sorry but i am not going to say names. well that pretty much it.
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Thursday, February 23rd, 2006
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| Time: | 10:08 am. |
| Mood: |  tired. |
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Yay!! Update. Sorry i haven't been updating recently. Just have been too busy. Nothin much has been going on. Yesterday i went to a choir competion. Our choir is not very good so we only got a 2. That is still pretty good. I am getting a new horse for my jumping. Yay for me. Thats pretty much it.
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Wednesday, February 15th, 2006
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Thursday, February 9th, 2006
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It (royalty) is only about 1 day away. I am so excited. Yippie!!! Woo Hoo!!! Anyways, still nothing much going on.
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Wednesday, February 8th, 2006
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Not much going on around here. Not much at all. If you have anything to read let me know because i am really bored. help me.
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Sunday, January 22nd, 2006
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Guess what? You don't know? Well I will tell you all about it.
Today our hay man (David) brought us hay and our horses rushed him. My horse ran out the gate and into the neighbors field. Well as you can imagine all of the others followed him and there was no stopping them. We chased them up the road and down into our neighbors yard. (of course, the stupid neighbors just stood there and laughed while we chased our horses all over their field. They just watched.) Well anyway we caught my appy and the others were easy to catch. So that was my Sunday. A diversion from my normal weekend.
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Saturday, January 21st, 2006
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I went Royalty shopping with my friends, Katie Fox and Kate Churchill today. We went to Oak Park Mall and went to Dillards where Katie found her dress. It is dark blue with spagetti straps and it looks very smexy on her. I love it. Kate already had her dress. It is purple with sequiencs on it. She looks very smexy in her purple dress. Me however, I didn't find one. *sighs* I must have tried on a thousand dresses. Then I found one that I liked but it was 149.99 dollars. I still might get it though. It is black with pink trim around the top with spagetti straps. There is a slit down the side and under that is a pink slip with pink sequienced flowers down the side of it. It was gorgeous. I love it. My mom still has to look at it and hopefully I can get it, and if I don't I will just have to find another one.
I am still dateless for Royalty. I am hoping to find a date here before long. I will just pray that I will find someone to go with.
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Thursday, January 19th, 2006
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I am finally better. I am not sick anymore! But now I am extremely bored. Someone give me something to do. I am begging you! Give me something to read!
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Tuesday, January 17th, 2006
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My dad was sick over the weekend. Then he got my brother sick, and now i think that i am getting sick. Joy *sigh*.
On a happier note, my granny and papa got a new puppy. She says it doesn't even weigh a pound. It is a little dachshund that is brown and has black stripes on it. They named it lucky. I personally think that they could have named it better, but that is just my opinion. It is really cute.
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Saturday, January 14th, 2006
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i still feel like crap. Nothing to do. Got to ride a new horse today. She came off the track and was really hyper. I jumped her and she was great. Her name is Nike. She is black, and she is a total baby. (even though she is 17)
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